Confused

I can't understand myself

Am I confused?

Am I in love?

Am I lonely?

Am I hurt?

Am I sick?

I can't understand my life

Is it an aftermath?

Is it a beginning?

Is it a continuation?

Is it an ending?

When it took years to forget

but a minute to reset

When it took a minute to fall

yet years to crawl

When it took years to wait

but a second to break

I will never understand

the life I take

Reality hits

when the fantasy grows

Pain cuts

when the hope starts

Left is right

Right is left

Black is white

and white is black

Women and Wine

Cigarettes and Swine

Forbidden for once

Acceptable for twice

I can never understand 

The choices that arise

The effects and surprises